Trip in 13 Days

I am leaving on my mission trip in 13 days and now the anxiety and nervousness is really starting to set in. I have such a short temper about everything and earlier I started crying and don't even remember why. I asked Rob what was I thinking deciding to leave for a month, I should have only made the trip 2 weeks long or so, and he said it was me being bold in the Lord and following His plan, which is for me to go on this trip and minister to these children.

Now I am trying to pray for God's guidance and strength as I prepare to leave on my trip in a few short days. I not only worry about being by myself in the DR, but also I worry about Rob and how he will handle things on his own. I know he is fully competent and able to pay the bills, keep the apartment clean, buy groceries, etc. but up until this point I have handled those things and other things since those are the duties I agreed to handle as my role of wife in our household. I have loved taking care of Rob and seeing to his needs and I hope my example will allow him to handle these things on his own in my abscence.

I also worry about my mother. She and I are so close, we are best friends, and I call her every day just to say hi and catch up on her day with her. While in the DR I will only be able to call and email once a week and I know she will be so nervous and stressed while I am gone. I pray for peace for her heart and mind and that she will trust God to take care of me while I am away, as He always has. She has already cried about this trip a few times in the past week, I hope she is able to have strength while I am gone, I do not want to worry about her.

I know this trip will be life altering for me and I will grow in my relationship with Christ. I hope that my relationships with my loved ones also grow and strengthen as a result of this trip.

Only time will tell.

I'm off to eat dinner with Rob before we leave for Life Group.

Peace out!